Pain, Heart Ache, Tears…and More!

Published 10/10/2016 by inspiringyourspirit

 

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My Dear Friends,

It has been many, many, long weeks since I have been able to place my fingers on this keyboard, to even attempt to write my blog…Words have left me, my heart has been broken and I have been struggling to get through my days and my nights.

The love of my life, my beautiful wife has decided to leave me 😦 There is no one else involved and we are still the best of friends, she has her own spiritual journey and her own pathway to follow, and her own needs to consider, and although this decision has truly broken my heart, I also respect her and I honour her decision.

Tears, endless buckets of tears have left my eyes, washed down my face and helped wash away my pain, my heart has missed so many beats, the slightest thought, song, tv program or word seems to set me off again, my beautiful dogs have given me endless cuddles, laid by my side while I have been crying and comforted me on endless occasions over these past few weeks, helping me move on with my life.

My own spirituality, my connection to my higher self, my pathway has been called into my thoughts each and every day, I quizzed myself endlessly, asking myself why!…and Where am I going with my life!

I read your comments, see and feel the love that you share, and I’m truly honoured by your sentiment and words of love, compassion, and support.

Where do I go from here?….Honestly, I don’t yet know!

Each day is a new day, a move towards the future, and whatever that holds for me.

One piece of positive news is after many years of procrastination, I actually went to Bhutan, hiked up some of the highest mountains, visited many amazing Buddhist Monasteries and Temples, met with Lamas and Rinpoche’s, meditated in the sacred sites and touched my heart with the Buddha in one of the most amazing experiences of my life….Future post…Maybe!…Watch this space.

Namaste with Love

Always

Mark

11 comments on “Pain, Heart Ache, Tears…and More!

  • I have been where you are. My heart goes out to you, Let yourself feel every aspect of this heartbreak. Rushing it will only delay your healing and the lessons that are there for you. Blessings.

  • I send you thoughts of love and support during this difficult time. My heart hurts for you. I nearly divorced my husband, but I could not handle the heartbreak. I never thought someone could cry that much. But we can. And it’s ok to cry. You go through the stages of grief after divorce. I send you positive thoughts of healing.

  • Mark I just send much love to you! I’ve been through this and it’s so hard! At every level of our current existence there is a “leaving” going on it seems. You’ve been through so much and this must be the next step on your journey of leaving who you were behind to be who you are here to be.

    • Its a tough one I know 😦 I know it is the start of my next chapter, but at this moment in time its like im caught in a vortex, spinning endlessly around and around 😦 I need to break myself free and step on to the next stage of my life.

  • You have changed Mark, because of your brush with death. It has moved you so much further forward in your journey, and on a different path to the love of your life.
    And even though the very act of that separation will allow you to ‘see’ more within your own heart, it will also further the unconditional love within that waits quietly for us all to find, and allow us to look back on these times with a love like no other in its understanding of that change.
    Much pain, but within it, much beauty…and this very event, with great love, has already altered your footsteps, to guide you closer to that place of joy that we all seek.
    No, it isn’t much solace as you go through it now, but in truth, it is ever guiding you further within.
    Love and light to you both, may you both reach that beauty in your journey. Namaste

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