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A Fresh Start To My Life!

Published 26/11/2015 by inspiringyourspirit


My Dear Friends,

Firstly, I would like to take a moment to thank you all for your support, your kind words and your love in response to my anaphylactic shock and death experience this week 🙂 As I read through your comments, tears of joy rolled down my face as I absorbed all the love and healing energies that you sent through to me. This kindness is what our world needs so badly, this love is to be shared throughout humanity like the waves of a tsunami, waves of love, waves of kindness, waves of compassion flowing out from our hearts to all those in need around the world.

Since my heart stopped in that ambulance this week and since seeing my body lying there on that ambulance bed from above and since standing there in front of God surrounded by the ascended masters Angels and Arch Angels, my life has changed…the re-starting of my heart was an act of God, I stood there in front of him and said’ ‘I’m not coming to you today’, and immediately the ambulance man hit my chest again and re-started my heart, my blood began to pump from my heart and oxygen filled my brain…I could clearly hear all that was going on around me and whilst I was gone I could see every detail below me in precise detail, ‘Clarity of vision and clarity of hearing’ was so precise.

But today I am here, here to share my story but more importantly to try to also bring greater awareness to humanity re the importance of Allergies and the reactions like Anaphylactic Shock and what that means and how this can and does lead to death often within minutes!


So, as I sit here today in front of my computer, I feel myself drifting away, drifting away into myself, into my heart and connecting to my soul, this has been a very emotional experience for me, I start to cry for no reason at all, other than to cry in gratitude for my life, for being here and for the chance to live another day….But, I am a lucky one, I have been given another chance at my life, I have been spared so now I must do my best to bring about greater awareness as to the effects of food allergies. I am no expert only to say that for over 50 years of my life I have had ‘NO’ food allergies whatsoever. Two years ago; one evening my lip started to swell up for no reason, and it went down again after a couple of hours, no real discomfort only strange looking!…A few days later my tongue started to swell, it got so big it felt like I would choke as I was finding it difficult to breathe 😦 I was given an antihistamine tablet which started to work within minutes and eventually my tongue shrank back down to its normal size. This happened a couple more times over the following weeks and we tried to find any connections to food and to drinks that may have caused these reactions…but nothing was the same! Different times of day or night, not connected in time to eating food and different food and or drinks were consumed each time…So what could I do? Well, I went to the hospital, they gave me blood tests and an allergy skin prick test where they test you for the most common food and substance allergies like pollen, etc but nothing showed too badly, my skin did react to a couple of thinks like cat hairs and dust but nothing conclusive….

…But things started to escalate, the problems and reactions became more intense each time, my face would start to swell, my eyes to bulge, my lips and tongue swell up so big and for so long I could not go out often staying swollen for hours at a time and each time I would need to increase my doses of antihistamine tablets just to control and start to reverse the effects of the reaction!

I made another hospital appointment and this time i made sure they did a full blood workout where more items were checked and low and behold I was ‘Off the Charts’ with ‘EGGS’ and high with ‘Lobster’, and ‘Pollution, basically dust from the atmosphere’. Now, I live in China so the last one, pollution, dust in the atmosphere is expected because of the massive growth in buildings and construction here, the use of fossil fuels and who know what else in the atmosphere but in saying that , it is slowly getting better as things are proactively being done to clean up the country 🙂 But Eggs!..Who knew!…I have eaten eggs all my life, I loved eggs, they were always in our house and a part of our life.

So, why eggs?….Why now?…What can I do?…..

There was no answer, no one could tell me why all of a sudden after more than 50 years of life I suddenly became so highly allergic to eggs!…

But, the worst thing is…Do you realise how many things eggs are in?

I found myself reacting all the time, swollen lips, tongue, face, heat rashes, itchy skin, swollen fingers, etc, etc; but most often I could not see any eggs in the food I was eating…but of course; there are eggs hidden in the food, or food has been processed on the same production lines that contained eggs in another food processes. Luckily for some, food packaging has food items listed or food allergies listed…but still THOUSANDS’ of foods are not listed with allergy information and most packages just don’t tell you if eggs have been processed on the same production lines as the product you are looking at now!..So, it’s a game of chance, a game of chance that CAN AND DOES LEAD TO DEATH, take my word for it as it happened to me this week!

There are many forms of food allergies, ‘Nuts’ are probably one that we are most used to hearing about but how to we bring awareness to humanity, how do we make waiters, restaurant staff, chefs, cooks and shop assistants know how dangerous food items are and how seriously they should take this?….I know from my experience that no one in my restaurant knew about food allergies, I mad it clear to them when ordering that I could not have eggs or mayonnaise in my sandwich, I looked at my food before I started to eat; but the mayonnaise was hidden to my view, the menus did not list all items…just think about this folks….

When you go for a burger, or go to a sandwich shop ‘Does the sandwich or burger ‘ state all the facts, do they show all things that could give allergic reaction?…NO, when I go to a fresh sandwich shop i see wonderful sandwiches, baguettes, ciabatta, panini’s etc….but almost all contain mayonnaise…..and often there is no alternative, but the ‘Majority of employees working in these establishments have NO idea about allergies or the consequences of feeding you something that might just ‘KILL’ YOU!

My Dear Friends, this post is not about me, it is about the thousands that have died through Al]naphalactic shock, through food or drink consumption, through no fault of their own but through the lack of awareness, through the lack of a sense of ‘Ownership’ and ‘Responsibility’ on behalf of the ‘Food Manufacturers’, ‘Packaging Companies’, ‘Food Suppliers’, ‘Supermarkets’ and of course the Resturant and Shop Owners and their Staff….

I’m a lucky one, I was allowed another day, so please help me share this important message around the world, please translate and share if you can and let’s try to save live….because ‘ People Matter’!

Namaste with Love,





You Have Two Hands, One For Helping Yourself, The Other For Helping Others.

Published 09/12/2014 by inspiringyourspirit


Very powerful words from Audrey Hepburn, and the picture of her carrying and helping a starving child makes us realise how important these simple words are.

“You have two hands, one for helping yourself and the other for helping others”

I now realise that this doesn’t just apply to people in underdeveloped countries, to the homeless, to victims of war, poverty and strife, this also applies to people in our own countries, in our own neighbourhoods that are suffering right now, suffering from injustice, from race hatred, from exploitation (being paid less than the minimum wage), from lack of funds to educate their children, from lack of funds to heal their sick child or gain medical support for their own health in order to keep them working so they can pay their own way in life.

We do have two hands, we have two eyes and we have two ears but so often we fail to reach out and offer a hand in support of our brothers and sisters, we close our eyes to the injustice that we see each and everyday, we close our ears when we hear people crying out for help, or when we hear someone abused by others and we close our mouths when its time for us to speak out in favor of these brothers and sisters around the world that ARE being exploited, badly treated and victimised by the corporates, the governments, the media and the blindfolded biggots of our world who want to keep us in our place, downtrodden for their own gain, to fuel their fires and to grow their wealth, and when we break down they toss us aside and get someone else to take our place who is as desperate as us to earn a living..and so the cycle of mistreatment continues.

Honestly, I’m appalled at what I see in the media, on the news. Of course social media allowing flashes of reality to get to us through Twitter etc, sharing with us the realities of what is really going on all around us, giving us real time information on the police brutalities in our own countries, showing us peaceful demonstrations of employees who cannot afford to get welfare because of their low income whilst their companies are constantly in the fortune top 100 and their executives and shareholders earn millions of dollars. Where whole communities are being driven out of cities which were built on the sweat and blood of their families because they can no longer afford to rent a house in these cities where in some cases many generations have lived. My own daughter is caught up in the same situation, she studied for her degree in London, for 4 years she paid her way through University, she worked hard in two jobs whilst studying and each year she had to move further and further out of London, further away from her University due to the rapidly rising cost of renting property to the point of living in terrible housing conditions without heat in the far flung extremities of London, all the time whilst the rich buy the properties and rent and sell to the rich… so London in this case has very few Londoners now because they cannot afford to live there….

My Dear Friends, we have some serious problems in our world which need addressing, we should stop pointing the blame elsewhere, we should stop listening to the biased media that control our minds on behalf of the corporates and corrupt government officials, we should look at what’s going wrong in our neighbourhood, we should stand up for each other, we should hold out a hand to support our brothers and sisters, we should listen to their cries for help and we should come together with one voice and speak out for what we should all be entitled to and that is simple…

  • Freedom of speech,
  • The right to stand up for our own human rights,
  • Work for an honest days wage in order to place food on our table and afford a roof over our heads
  • Education for all
  • Medical care for all
  • And live in a world that is free from hatred because of color, race or religious belief

So, my dear friends, when you look at the picture above, please remember your brothers and sisters, your own community, your own countrymen that are also suffering from these atrocities…

Lets make a difference

Namaste with Love



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